Date:   6/27/2009 4:49:57 AM ( 16 y ago)
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Steve, thanks for reply. Thanks for acknowledging our previous interactions and the misunderstandings. I really appreciate this. It's important to me to express myself and have a community. This helps me learn how to fast. To learn how to fast I have to learn how to manage my addictive nature, and get to its roots/deal with what is standing in my way; and socializing my process is essential to that.

Thanks for validating the idea of engaging in something that takes your mind off food. When I get in a certain space, I feel like nothing could take my mind off food. This is the typical mental/emotional state of an addicted person, so it's to be expected for me. But it helps to have it validated that I can let my mind be taken off food. ... In my play (musical/opera) I am trying to articulate just what the voice in my head is saying when it is compulsing me to eat. What arguments is the (addict) voice making? On what does it base its urgent compulsion to eat food? What are the feelings? With luck I will be able to address this today, work on this writing/healing project. This morning I have actually succeeded in getting through an episode of being compulsed to eat, without eating. It was really hard, but I was able to say, no, I won't eat; because eating is not OK with me right now. I needed to refrain from eating, and I did it. Partly, this morning, I was helped by being quite occupied and busy, and having to travel/make traveling connections on public transit so it was uncomfortable and inconvenient, and would have made me miss vitally important connections/meetings to stop everything for the sake of repressing my feelings with a food session. I partly got compulsed because I was in the vicinity of a supermarket and it was morning - a time when I often feel compulsed to eat even if it is not OK with me -- as a way of beginning the day, or something.
.. I mention all these things only in the spirit of helping myself stay with fasts when I am trying to fast...helping myself to understand myself so that I can carry out the fasting that I need to carry out, in order to heal.

Best wishes. I am in the UK now, by the way. How's everything with your food plan/fasting/healing? Laura
 

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