Date:   6/26/2009 12:39:06 PM ( 16 y ago)
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Well to make a long story short I have just left the docs. and before you scold me just know that I was forced to go. I had been having various problems with family support with this program but jumped in anyway. So I came upon some bumps and posted but received no responses. And yes I understand it was because of everyone being busy and I did not expect hand holding or anything else like that even though I admit I felt discouraged. So after about 10 days on the program I gave in to hubby and ate some veggies and vegan soup/stirfrys. I felt soooo much like a failure but decided to press on anyways and try again and just read every few days and hope that I can learn from the posts being answered. I did IF#1 and 2 I had to make my own If #1 since I had never heard anything back about ordering more than the 100 pill bag so I figured it would be worth it to make my own and so I did since Uny generously supplies that info. I got my herbs and made my pills. I had gone about 2 days into my new juice fast when I was able to restart IF#1(to keep things moving before I got my herbs I was taking large amounts of ground up flax and Dr. C.'s quick colon.

I them got my herbs and made my If#1 adding in slippery elm and a bit of water to make pills(as mentioned in Dr. C's book) since I did not have a capsule maker yet.

So I was juicing mostly orange and grapefruit and carrot/parley.spinach combos equaling up to about 4 large mason jars full and then P. Broth with cayenne and super food/flax smoothies with pineapple and bottled OJ( I was saving the fresh to drink alone to savor the taste. I added in some kelp and alpha powder. I jogged around my neighborhood, which is very extreme hilly and a mile when you go completely around it and some gental yoga. I did enemas every other day and drank a ton of water. So on day 8 I had been feeling week so I forced myself to do my walk/jog and as I climed up the last hill to my house I was feeling light headed and felt my heart beating very loud. I paused in front of my driveway(which is a steep hill as well)and felt like I did not have enough energy to make it up my drive. I remember slowly walking up it thinking about taking some broth. When I got up the driveway I felt even sicker and weaker but still had the steps to get to my front door. I climbed those 5 steps slowly opened my door and felt this heavy black heaviness shut out my vision and a heavy sick pain and then nothing. The next thing I knew my daughter was shrieking and my hubby was carrying me up stairs. He then called the doc. against my protests. Since I have no primary care doc. the insurance assigned me one close and my husband forced me to go. So they checked my pulse/heart/blood Sugar etc... and the looks and lectures I got was so degrading.My electrolites were off and my blood Sugar low. They actually accused me of having an eating disorder and being misinformed and of course my hubby latched on it as well. They actually sited cases of people they heard of who got really sick or died from Dr. S. program or ones like it. What could I say? So yes I was at despairs door and wondering what kind of failure am I as I ate the food with meat in it that I had to in order to keep them from MAKING me go to a hosp.!!! So where does that leave me? Well I still have my herbs and I will do them but emotionally and even physically I am wiped out. I can't do this to my husband and kids, I feel so selfish but all I was trying to do was get healthy for them so they would have an healthy mom when they were adults and I could set an example for them but the only example I am is failure. I am sorry if this comes across negative as that is not my intention, please. I am sure the fault is mine not the programs no matter what the experts say. BTHW- I am not on meds currently or in the past so it couldn't be my body reacting the the loss of meds so all I can think it is is from my past problems with hypogycemia(sp) or I just over looked some things. ~sorry~
 

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