Date:   10/16/2008 1:17:20 PM ( 16 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1278398

thank you for such a thoughtful and insightful response. You've got it all right. I did want to say though that I have seen a therapist (a few different ones) throughout the last decade, but with time off in between. I believe what you say about getting a new one though and I've discontinued for now until I find one who is more familiar with treating daughters of NPD mothers.

Obviously, the reason I was driven to post on this board was my emotional tumult over the last man I went to bed with. He has turned out to be not only a disappontment, but a great source of emotional angst, "just like mom used to make." Most people use that phrase when they talk about a special holiday cake or soup. Ha! On a more positive note though (I'm trying to see the good in even my own errors), I think this was the time for me to rectify this last piece of my psychologial growth. I've known for some time that I've had an unhealthy view on relationships... especially because as soon as I start to feel vulnerable with feelings for a man, I immediately begin to resent and hate him with passion. I don't like being made to feel vulnerable. All other aspects of my life are in place... work, finances, friends, hobbies. It's just this last piece I've known for some time I had to address, but wasn't really ready.

Again, I thank you for your time and kind words. t's so comforting to know that I'm not alone out here. Sometimes it feels that way.

 

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