Date:   10/8/2008 5:26:40 PM ( 16 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1273167

Wow! Today this all sounds so surreal. He knows somethings up and he's screwing with me daily. My hearts in my stomach and I'm having moments of weakness and I haven't even begun. Fledgling, reading your post helped me to imagine what is to come and I feel afraid; is this really the beginning of the end? I've been so ready and then again I don't feel ready at all. I wish I could just close my eyes, click my hills together and be in another place when I open them. I don't want to go through the trauma, I don't want to hurt my family and I don't want to have nothing in my bank account. There are so many people depending on me, how can I be in this situation? Why didn't I wake up sooner? Ok, ok, my therapist said to not go back to saying things like "how can I have been so blind" because it will only keep me where I am right now. I asked her to give me the names of good attorney's and she said she wants to see me a few more times before I get to that point. She mentioned that she sent someone else to an attorney and the attorney said do this, this and this right now and the woman just began to sob as if she wasn't ready. I guess that's why my therapist wants to make sure I'm ready for that. I am trying to find my strength today. I don't want to be a big cry baby, I just want to be strong. I need to devise a plan, I think that will help. Thanks for listening and giving me your advice.
 

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