Date:   2/20/2008 3:10:03 PM ( 16 y ago)
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I attended one of the BBSH Introduction to Healing Science workshops she led, here in Canada. This was oh, ten years ago! She really is a lovely human being, strong, focussed and radiant,(doesn't do healing sessions herself anymore, alas)and the vibration in the place was something like a tinkling shivering crystal dome above us, or a glittering golden filagree. Incredibly high vibration. Just fantastic. Streamers of light everywhere, and I think almost everyone there could easily see a great number of entities of Light surrounding her, when she was demonsrating on a student. We were learning "HSP" ( High Sense Perception) and chelation as outlined in Hands of Light, and after one session where I was on the 'channeling' end, after being raised to the heights of bliss, and clearly hearing "God's" (?) voice say "you're home", I soon after felt crashed back on the rocks of earth. devastated. I felt utterly abandoned, thrown back into this dense realm of form.

I was working with someone who, (unbeknownst to me) was a twin whose sibling died in utero--so she was working with reconnection. Had never come close until that day. Barbara told us that the theme for the weekend (that always arose once the group gathered) was repairing these cords that are torn out when people experience severance. This woman I was attending told me later she made contact with a new spirit guide, (I saw and described to her) and although her session with me hadn't completed the healing/connection with her sister, it had come very close. She was able to find resolution later that day, with another partner. Humbling experience.

I was reading what you were saying in another thread around here, "how to release this one" (which by the way made me think you were speaking of 'your self': my son would say "this one" when he was 16-17, and going through a big spiritual awakening).
You spoke about feeling conflicted, like you'd often wanted to leave this plane; feeling lonely for 'home', so to speak. Hope I'm not misinterpreting.

Anyway, I was reminded of that healing Science weekend. Did we talk about this before? Deja Vu. I turned 40 that same weekend. What a wonderful birthday. I spent a few years after confused about that voice: it saying "you're home", and me feeling all the longing of my life dissolved, in that 'place', or moment--and then left to wonder, why was I crashed back to this 'reality'? What was this "home" and why then must I leave? fast forward through a lot of severance...and a level of Grace and knowing that never would have been possible, had not everything gone exactly as it did.(does)

I realize now that this home isn't a 'place' I can only get to through some external magic or heightened energies as of Barbara Brennan's; it's a question of turning the dial to that place where one is already, always, home. Anyway--I don't mean to make it all sound 'easy' or to create festivities around some creation of "me" -- But it *is* simple, right?

I had thought I would take the training at her school, ( I know two or three people who've done that training) but it was that weekend that I really desired. At the end, while we were all talking about future plans, the training and so on, she said that she saw her future in teaching children, and I felt all the hairs on my body rise. It was just a wonderful moment of some sort of precognition; something to genuinely celebrate.

I had been feeling for years (since I was a kid I think, with a feeling of not being "home")that all these abilities that include seeing streamers of light connecting people (and people and their animals)and indeed that whole realm of reality -where everything is alive in Grace and shimmers in colours that hardly exist here, except somewhat in rainbows-- all these ablitites are just simple stuff we've forgotten through our falling asleep into density. As one Jesus taught, when he said, you shall do all these things and more...

Anyway, just a few thoughts you might find resonant...I really enjoyed reading the various articles that arose from that link you left. Feel a return to that place of trusting being 'home'.

best to you, S.

A.

 

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