Date:   12/30/2007 11:25:12 AM ( 17 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1073351

I remember in the past,having gone through HORRIBLE phases of negativity and hardships-including bouts of severe severe severe negative thinking/visualizations and suggestions.

For instance,I have HATED my parents,girls,people,my sexuality,old 'friends'..I mean HATED HATED HATED HATED everything and everything.My thoughts were just horrid,my my suggestions and self talk was WORSE.

The thing is..that in time,I have also been allowed to see how the effect of such hatred has changed me.It allowed me to slow down,think about my actions and see that the other side of the coin,the good of people,of my folks,of love and caring..only through hating so intensely.Only through intense confusion was I able be able to care soo much and become even more so receptive to certain things.I am talking about 10 years worth of negativity and crap.It wasn't all bad but alot of it was.

I mean ,negative thinking can be humbling in the long run and it has it's lessons.I think some just have to go through intense bouts of negativity just to see the light or whatever,through the hard times..I have had faith,still believed and held on strongly ..a no matter what type of obstacle or consequence.I have been consumed by negativity,nursed it,let it grow inside of me and become one with it..only to have it destroy me in the end but allow me to emerge much wiser and a stronger understanding of my true self and nature..self-knowledge and awareness.

By focusing soo much on what I didn't want..when I began getting more and more of what I didn't want..it made me look in a different path,to what I do want.
Once I was able to recognize the intense negative bouts..I can accept it for what it is and just understand..hey,I am feeling negative today or my mind is in the gutter..but I will be fine sort of deal,instead of taking it all in and letting every little thing effect me.

Also,are you ready for what you ultimately want?
if not it may be slightly out of grasp,though still obtainable..when the right times comes it will come naturally and willingly i believe.
 

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