Date:   12/27/2007 2:39:58 PM ( 17 y ago)
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Thanks for taking the time to reply to my post. Yes, I do think it takes courage to post such personal matters on a public forum, but it just feels so good to get it out and there are many others who have similar experiences, so it makes it feel a little less invasive! It's kind of like a group meeting sharing experiences. I just love to read some of the more regular members posts, like Molly's! She is the sweetest, most in depth person I have "known of" in a long time! I wish she lived near by! Haha!

I have also thought about writing everything down, but I have yet to do it. It's funny because when I try to remember my early childhood, I can't hardly remember my mother in it. She was definitely there because she was a stay at home mother! Anyway, your story sounds moving and from what I read above, it amazes me how cruel some people can be. I just can't imagine doing some of the things that I read about that people have experienced! It just breaks my heart! I just want to give everyone who has a broken heart a big hug!

I am also a mother to an eight year old daughter. I sometimes wonder how things will be as she gets older. I fear that my parenting style is not what I want it to be. Sometimes I feel like I am not able to get close to her like I want to because I don't know how and I do not want to repeat the pattern of abuse. I rarely spank my child and I try to talk to her about things when she does wrong instead of using physical intervention. She is a pretty well rounded child. A little hard headed, but who isn't! :)

As for religion, my beliefs have changed so much. I've learned a lot here on curezone about religion and what I have learned makes so much more sense than the way I was raised. I believe we all are part of God, God works through us and we all have the right to be here and be happy. I don't believe in the church any more. It's difficult to explain, but I read the passage "religion is a form of slavery" and it just stuck. I also believe that most of what we have been taught, told, etc is mostly false. I think you get the idea! Sinners unite! LOL

Any way thanks again. It really means a lot to me that you took the time to reply. I don't know where to start to heal myself spiritually, but I have come a long way on my own just by researching and gaining my own knowledge. Remember, seek and you shall find!! I just want to become the self assured, confident woman I should be. I guess due to my experience with my mother, I tend to avoid confrontation at all costs and sometimes that isn't the best thing to do! I need to learn to stick up for myself the right way. In time!

:)

S.
 

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