Date:   11/27/2007 2:32:14 PM ( 17 y ago)
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Thanks for the response, although I'm not sure how to reply.

As a toddler I fell down some stairs, after that I started having fainting episodes.
Dr thought it might be some form of epilepsy and put me on a formula that is reminisent
of black strap molasses.

At age of 7 or so I discovered playin with myself.
Got told it was a Mortal Sin a few years later,
right after I got enrolled in Catholic grade school.
This produced a huge conflict in me.
(Up to that point God made me and loved me. Now He was sending me to hell.)
I didn't stop my activity, just hated myself for it.

When 23 got involved with a guy that had some psychic abilities.
(He believed he was possessed)
That experience was very profound (in my opinion) with clear moving astral visions,
altered states of consciousness, and hearing each other thoughts.
All this happened rather quickly and disintigrated even faster.
I ended up in a mental institution.

Maybe you can see the foundation here...
Maybe not
All I know is whenever I try and open up to the psychic I end up psychotic
getting paranoid- hearing voices, convinced others know my thoughts,
seeing bad in others and thinking they're possessed etc.
Suppose I should just be happy not to be in an institution.
Know I don't want to re-experience my last episode of voices:
" You still don't get it do you? I don't love you. I HATE YOU! You don't know the things I've done.
What I've been though. You've never seen ME"

No I don't think I have seen whoever this voice belongs to,
but as part of my own psyche? It would have to be a former incarnation...
Then again, it might be my son...


 

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