Date:   10/24/2007 12:22:02 PM ( 17 y ago)
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URL:   https://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1027830

"there are many internal sacrifices we must make in this life. god bless all those who persevere to the end so that he can say, well done my good and faithful servant."

Very insightful post...all of it. It explains too, so much of what I am going through personally - and internally. I copied the last line as I wish to respond to it specifically, that and the time of your post. I literally plopped into bed at that very time because I remember thinking, "Wow, it's quarter to four, 7:15 will come pretty quickly and I really should get some sleep, but I also want to get my 7 pages in." (I was Led to read the bible cover to cover again, and 7 pages a day will get it done within 6 months' time). I finished reading about Noah and his family before turning out the light.

Internal sacrifices, (and my own specific personal conflict).

I've dreamt three times of total devastation of my area, an event that will kill many...including my family. (The event is a natural one but will make nine elevn look minor in comparison). This would most likely be the beginning of tremendous change (to say the very least) in our country. The initial change will be much harsher than what we're experiencing right now...at least for a time.

I know that it would actually be much easier to stay in my own town, where I saw the devastation. It would actually be much easier to die with my family than to live through the aftermath, not only to carry on, but to carry on without my precious child. But I know I'm been called to stay. I've known for quite a few years now that I've been given a choice. When I look into my family's eyes, (and they all know now what I've dreamt) I have gotten mixed messages. "How can I leave?"

You asking if this is a swine free zone fits as well, because others reading my answer might think, "If she actually gets the 'message' to leave her family behind, knowing they're going to die, and that she won't die - how can she possibly do that, if she truly believes what she dreamed about will happen?"

This too, I've prayed about. A lot. But I blessedly do not know the day nor hour of when the event I dreamed about will occur. So, I cannot live my life not ever going anywhere by myself. I know, that at the appropriate time, I will get called away; it may come under the guise of a conference, or women's group trip, or call from my sister to have me travel to do something with her - or something else - just before my dream comes true. When I say, "or something else", I would consider myself quite blessed indeed if I actually received an angelic messenger like Mary had, or a message explicitly stated in a dream like Joseph had.

And yet, my husband has asked me, "How can you stay behind? Do you realize how rough it will be? You simply have no idea how rough it's going to be."

I answered him, "Oh, but I do, and if I allow it to, it scares me to death...."

When I really think about it, I do get scared. I know it would be MUCH easier to just, GO HOME to heaven with my family than to live alone through what's coming down the pike.

However, when you actually desire to seek God's Will, and then to actually commit yourself to God's Will, you were never truly alone in the first place.
 

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