Date:   10/17/2007 7:33:38 PM ( 17 y ago)
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Hi I'm actually a chic too but im a tomboy was raised by a single dad who raised me like a boy more than a girl.in high school never dated guys cause they were my friends and i really didnt see anything in them and also saw how they were dogging their girls. Now as an adult still hang out with guys I'm an engineering student and its mostly guys in my classes we have to study together etc so lot of male energy in my life and hell I dont trust guys in the relationship dept but guess what I'm no better than the guys either I'm totally full of bull**** when it comes to relationships just wasting their time.So I only started dating around 19/20 after high school and for me it was all games double crossing guys etc things I guess my guy friends did and it was cool then unfortunatley arond 23/24 the game caught up with me I ended up in a messy situation I freakin wasted this guys time 2 yrs with lies and stupid games and ended up hurting myself too cause when i realised what i did hurt him I really cldnt forgive myself I hated myself for it and completley withdrew from life(other challenges I was facing so it just piled up in one go and I had a nervous breakdown eating disorder worsened etc I kinda stopped living and was just functioning)Now I just took a semester off to confront all my demons cause I cldnt go thru life feeling as numb or empty as I was, slowly I'm melting down and forgiving myself I'm ready to move on.So its from these experiences of having missed out on life being depressed that I'm telling you life is too short to sit around and wonder what ifs grab life by the horns and just live it.Living it is taking ACTIONS go out with this guy to figure the answer to your questions thats the the only way theyll be answered please just have fun with this new love interest dont take things too seriously believe things have a way of sorting themselves out.

I have another month or 2 of working thru my demons reach my goal weight cause thats another big place of conflict for me (the eating disorder/weight because i believe in perfection and average weight is not good for me so if I can just get to where I'm comfortable I'll be ready to go out there ans start living)and afterwards im putting the past behind and seriously living life to its fullest no more hesitations i think we are our own enemies holding ourselves back.

So I say girl when this man comes around tell him it'll probably be getting busy soon w customers and you feel bad that he gets inturrupted each time with customers so heres your card why doesnt give you a call sometime.This way it doesnt really appear as tho you trying cause you giving him the control of whether he wants to call youre not the one pursuing men like to be the ones to chase not really the other way.So go for it and have fun with it.
 

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