Why did the drinking start?

I suppose I have become an alcoholic. It snuck up on me. I had my first blackout while drinking in 2002. I've had highs and lows in my progress with trying to moderate myself. Unfortunately there have been too many nights in the last year during which I don't know how I got home but was eternally grateful to wake in my own bed safe and sound. When there's booze around the house I sometimes find myself drinking during the day. I hate this but have rationalized that if I drink during the day I am less likely to drink at night. It is completely unnecessary and I want to wholly cut it out of my life. Today I am starting a Master Cleanse fast. Hopefully this will be the jumpstart I need. With prayers and support I will avoid alcohol for the duration of it and once done not return to the land of spirits... Please let's come together and encourage and support one another. We are all one. God Bless. Tweet