2.5 or so grams of Glutamine turns on the pleasure centers of the brain. I find that Kirkland Fish Oil is also excellent for Depression and has no mercury or pcb's. I no longer seem to need the Glutamine.
Your night terrors are likely the beginnings of out of body. When your body is paralyzed you are disconnected from your body. Your being can then move away from the body. Symptoms- you feel an evil presence or threat, your body can't move, you hear noises in the room, you might see someone in the room, you feel like you are floating.
You just have to quit drinking. Get training so you can eventually work. Just do something every day to slowly get yourself out of your situation.