I am new to CZ and to forums like this but after reading this particular string I had to respond. I am listening and care a great deal about your success...and I don't even know you.
You have much courage to go it w/o AA. Don't think I could do it. I'm an Alanon veteran, sponsor, etc. and have just begun to think seriously about my own drinking. Just sending this email has been tough.
I'll pray for you and watch for your updates. Please keep them coming.
Clare