i really feel for you. i too come from a background that includes drugs, smoking drinking etc. it is hard enough to do the cleanse but when i feel unsupported by my partner it just seems to feel that much harder. i tend to be codependent but this time i am doing it alone and i am a bit sad but i really need to do this for me. i wonder how i will feel when i see my hubby and kids eating meals without me. i try to make the meals for them as i like to smell food when i am cleansing. today i cut up a mango and pineapple for my kids and i just sniffed away. i wish you well with your cleanse. you go girl!!!!