New and Starting the cleanse. Getting off of Effexor. Also Posted in Depression Forum.

I have been reading this site for several years and have done some small cleanses. I am in a transitional place right now looking for a new job. I have been under a great deal of stress for some time now. Went through the Fall of Enron, got into real estate to make ends meet (thought was good idea :-)). In 2004 I got back into a "real" position. The environment I have been in has been dysfunctional and toxic. March 2007 was the end of that position. I have also gone back to school and I am a single parent. In September 2004 I "crashed". I had severe panic attacks. I could not get my thought under control and could not stop shaking. My parents had to get me. I was given zanex and effexor. I had been on anti depressents before, but weened myself off. Right now I have kept the panic attacks at bay, yet the stress levels cycle, when I start to think too much about my situation. I have decided to go on the Master-Cleanse cleanse, parasite cleanse and liver flush. My goal is for 20 days, but I will monitor this. I am on 37.5 of effexor in the morning once a day. Saturday I stopped taking the effexor. I had been smoking and am quitting that and drinking alot of coffee which also I am quitting, all to do the cleanse. Today has been trying. Withdrawls and depression. Today was my first day on the cleanse. I did not do too well, so I will start again tomorrow. I went to the gym, which usually always helps. It helped some. I am hoping that after about 3 days I will be ok. I am hoping that I can break some of these negative patterns, addictions and cleanse and change my chemical makeup to be free again. I read the book "The Power of Now". It is truly challenging sometimes for me to stay in the present, not filtering everything through the past and anticipating the future. I have become a member for support. I am a bit scared. Sometimes I feel like I am going crazy and wonder if I will be free of this. Ugh! This is the times when I am feeling depressed. of course. Any feedback welcome! Tweet