I am going to be crazy!!

height years in a foreign country and with ptsd!! I am living thanks to the divine grace!! And today I ask myself about this loneliness into I am. I am doing transcendental meditation, fast, oil pulling,etc but I cannot reach this pain inside myself. Cannot be happy!! Can I???? I did EMDR but it was not sufficient because I took antidepressant to mask symptoms. I have general good health if we miss some joint pain (I am 36 only) du to stress and (i think) an acidic body because instead of discharge anger and fury I swallow it like we drink water!!! I am convinced than bad feelings swallowed become acid. I am interesting in doing TAT or EFT. I have hgope but if you look at my face you will see all sadness of the world. I think that I can never love someone!! I have a low selfesteem. Very low.
My question is: Can I love and be loved???
I want to try TAT for this because I am not a bad person. No. According to various testimony I am very sensible and gentle.
I have only casual sex. But I need to be loved and touched. I need someone interested in me. I want to beuld a family and live happy. Is this too much???
The job I am now will close in four months and this was the trigger of my actual situation but perhaps it is the best thing because I dont want nomore mask anything. I did a short session of TAT today and I felt like something inside me to be reaching. There deeply There is a person suffering and asking for help while I the adult person live like a zombi. Only working, working and working. I need love and to be loved...
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