i will only say a few things.. Your will IS god's will.... no matter whatever you decide...everything good and bad god created...... adam and eve was an original blessing ... to actually take the bible word for word is fool hardy...let it be known that many men indeed wrote this book of stories..and it has evolved over the years through churches.. GOD did not stop speaking to you thousands of years ago... that would kinda make GOD dead...god speaks to everyone every day and uses other special people as messengers...