Two weeks ago i had an abortion which my partner pushed me in to. We already had a child and our financial situation and relationship was not good. Anyway, after agonising over my decision for 4 weeks (the time it took for my appointment at the hospital) i realised that far from being a villain my partner was actually right. He was doing the responsible thing and he was thinking of the child. It was breaking his heart as well as mine and i could see that. I realise that my story is a little different from yours as i was already blessed with having a beautiful child. But ask yourself how your life would have turned out today had you had your child. You could not provide for your child and your decision, like mine, was wholy selfless. Im sure your mother loves you dearly and would never knowingly hurt you in any way. I hope this has provided you with some answers and i wish you happiness for the future. Good luck.