I was saddened to read of your plight. Please do not subject yourself to this trauma by trying to end the pregnancy yourself. You may find that the result is that you end up with a baby that you never planned on having! I had an abortion two weeks ago and had previously tried to end the pregnancy by hitting myself in the stomach. I was afraid to have an abortion and agonised over my decision until the day of my appointment. But after the procedure, much to my surprise i felt no pain and no emotion other than absolute overwhelming relief that everything was okay. I wasnt sure what to expect but the nurses were so nice and everything was done in such a sensistive and confidential way that i was not left in any way traumatised or marred by my experience. So please, dont be afraid and dont put your health at risk any further by self medicating. Book that appointment today. My thoughts are with you.