I don't see that anything you have done is harmful to your baby. I would be glad to talk with you. Do you want to email me privately or talk through this site? I am a woman who had an abortion and I am a nurse. I remember feeling so alone when I was pregnant. I was trying just to make it through nursing school and there was no one safe to talk to because pregnancy meant that I would have to leave school (things are different now). I don't know if you had any other posts on this site or not but I only saw this one and am new to the site. So, if you've answered these questions, forgive me. How old are you? You are unmarried? In school? I will be watching for your reply.
Sophie