today is one of my bad days see that was not my last pregnancy, i have been pregnant 5 more times since each ending badly, my last pregnancy i gave birth to two sons one dead and one alive for one hour today would be their 9th birthday. rip victor neil and robert frank. its very hard when you love children so much and you know because of the choices you have made that you will no longere be able to have a child, see i had a hysterectomy two and a half years ago and its days like this that it hurts. thank you for your kind words though i do apprecaite it.