Very interesting your story as in a way reminds mine... i also found God after abortion. It was 8 years ago and i did an aborting despite my will, just to avoid arguing with my hysband whoi did not want a baby..... it was pain, pain, pain... but I struggled with myself, with my feeling towards him, and finally I realized he was not prepared to be a father, and I forgot it. meanwhile i discovered God would forgive us too.... the strangest fact is that,....my husband became sterile after it (YEAH! no doctors can tell why!!!) and my life is empty without a baby, but I still have hope..... 8 years ago we were young (28), seraching for different truths ( practicing yoga etc...0 and in a way, we were selfish... now we are more balanced, but still in pain for not being able to conceive..Do not imagine my huysband as a tough guy! he is just the opposite, very sweet, attentive, but....this is what it happened! this is our story, sorry for mistakes ( we are not English speakers) but I feel we women should support us in such circumstances.... all the best to all of you!