Please know I am here for you, as well as so many other truly wonderful and insightful women. We must learn to forgive ourselves and thats why I've come here and posted my story also. I feel everything you are feeling, I understand the pain you are going through. Since I have come here and posted my story, the reponses I have recieved have put me on the path to complete healing and forgiving myself. I am feeling better, each time I come to this sight I see new posts, we are sharing our stories, we are releasing. And releasing our pain by posting our stories is a type of "clensing of the soul". You are forgiven. Just like me, we all here are forgiven by GOD. Now we just have to rely upon each other as sisters, and continue to share, support, encourage, and enlight each other the best we possibly can. You have alot of new friends now and we welcome you to our little place in this world where you are LOVED and NOT JUDGED!