Re: To Babycakes and everyone else.......

Thank You, Thank You, Thank You, so very much for sharing this story with me and having compassion for me, as well the other women who are suffering such unbarable pain from this so called "choice" I became pregnant at 15 yrs. old. I hid my pregnancy for 6 months. When my parents found out they were hurt, but I agreed to marry my sons father. At 17 I was preganant again, and and even though I was in a very bad marriage, I had my baby boy. When he was 3 I separated from my husband and jumped right into an even more abusive relationship, I tried to get away so many times but he kept finding me or threatened my family. He insisted we marry as soon as my divorce was final and we did. At 23 I was pregnant again. He physically abused me throughout the entir pregnancy. He refused to drive me to the hospital when I was in Labor. I drove 18 miles alone with contractions 3 min. apart and I knew I was going to have a C-Section. The baby was very sick (pneumonia in both lungs and 1 month premature) my second preemie. After he recovered Praise The Lord, I was just so happy to have my baby, after all the beatings we endured, it was a miracle. Two weeks after my C-Section I was coming uo the steps with the baby in the carrier and for no reason he took the baby carrier from me and kicked me in my stomach as hard as he could sending me down the steps. When I was able to get up, I knew I was bleeding from my stomach. The blood had come through my clothes. I went into the bathroom, he had busted my incision open. I begged him to take me to the hospital for help, he said no, he did not want any problems with the police. I had to stuff toilet paper inside the wound and tape it shut to stop the bleeding. I left a few days later a went to a battered womens shelter. I was there for a couple of months then he got shot, I felt so sorry for him, I went back. It did not take long I was pregnant again. We had no jobs, no money, we were living with relative to relative. I feared being beat up again while being pregnant, he never held I a job, So as you can see things were really, really frightning for me. I know this sounds crazy, but I loved my baby so much, I had to let it go, my baby deserved much, much better than what I could have done for him or her. But That does not make it easier. I will always want my baby back. Now I just have to wait on God to call my name and one day he will. Thanks Again. Tweet