been a long time--starting fast friday!!! need help

hi all you fasters, i have been reading everyone's posts for a few days now and have decided i am ready to embark on a cleaning out of the system. it has been a while for me and i am sad to say i have become a fat, bloated, unhealthy, ashamed woman. i don't know how i let myself go astray. only 4 months ago i was trim, eating no sugar, meat or flour products---now!!!oh my God i am like a tazmanian devil on the loose--gobbling up everything in my path!!!!! i need to do this sooooo badly. for my health mostly but also for my self esteem. i am so ashamed of myself that i don't even want to go outside. i don't want anyone to see me and how gross i have become. i so desperately need everyone's help here. you are so wonderful and accepting of eachother. everyone here is full of encouragement and seems to truely care about one another. i want to get healthy again, and not turn back to my old ways. my plan is to go on a 10 day Water Fast and then after that juice fast until christmas. i won't mind missing thanksgiving dinner--never has been one of my favorite meals. i want so badly to look good for the Christmas parties i have to attend. and the best gift i can give to myself for Christmas is a healthier body and soul. i need to get my blood pressure lower, take off these extra pounds i have put on to ease up on all the work my poor heart has to do. i am so sorry i am rambling on--i just need help and support--so please be there for me, i am also here for everyone in anyway that i can be. God bless us all, and give us all strength. take care. Tweet