Wow! Hopsino you are right on. I have learned the line between fasting and having an ED. Oh, how i have learned. I don't want to be preachy because when I was having eating problems that is what I hated the most, but I have found such comfort in telling those who love me and finding God. I am not sure where you are "God wise" but please, get help. It doesn't have to be some big intervention, that is what I thought, but the biggest and best step is to get help and discover what makes life worth living for you. God bless you . . .