Re: Unable to move forward

Natalie - WOW - super light bulb time!

Did you know that there is an exercise (buddhist? yoga? not sure) where you are supposed to walk backwards in order to stay in touch with your 'back space', shadow self, past etc. We don't think about the energy back there!

Anyway...what really struck me is that you'd be able to 'more forward' if you were to walk backwards - Well! Walking backwards is verrrry symbolic of looking at your Past. When planets go retrograde (they appear to move backwards) they are urging us to look at past issues, go over them and clear them up. So...your dream is so clearly telling you that in order for you to move forward, you have to look at your past.

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I just looked up your chart (I found your info - I guess I didn't have time to look at it before - I was in the middle of my new job then...) and there is a lot going on, but one thing you should know is that you are about to get a whole lotta HEALING, regenerative energy. Yup. It's pretty profound.

It's funny, but your dream seemed really Mars-y to me because Mars rules the muscles and the fact that you're unable to walk (I KNOW that feeling - it is yukky in dreams!) means that you are unable to use your Energy (Mars rules the 'doing' energy). It's somehow blocked.

By the looks of your Mars - you would really like to put your energy towards artistic things. Beauty, Harmony - and Art. You may sometimes be indecisive (if you're able to get a Bach Flower Remedy made for you, I'd suggest a combination of: Star of Bethlehem, Scleranthus, Honeysuckle, Wild Oat, Clematis and Gentian). It looks like your Mars is slightly blocked, natally. The symbolism involved (if your birth time is correct: 9:15am and I hae the right Newcastle - NOT 'Waters') shows that you may have a hard time 'doing' or 'taking action'. It's like when faced with some obstacle a wall just comes right up and instead of being able to 'find a solution'...it just makes you feel absolutely paralyzed. Totally blocked. You don't know what to do. You're at a standstill. (this is very reminiscent of your 'can't move forward' dreams eh?) And to top it off it feels like some 'Authority' figure is blocking you in some way. And there's a desire for a Career and respect that you get from others when you have a solid Career/Calling that has some bearing on this energy that is blocking your Action/Energy. I wonder if any of this is making sense! I wish I could be clearer. hmmmm.

Well, Natalie, the super good news is....that Pluto has come to the rescue!!! I'm not kidding. The timing is perfect.

What is happening is that Pluto (out there in the sky right now) is making a verrrry beneficial, harmonious aspect to your afflicted Mars. (energy, blood, action, muscle)

Now, Pluto is super ultra powerful. The energy of Pluto is very Transformative and regenerative. He rebuilds, refines, reconstructs. And, Pluto is Healing. Pluto is the energy that Reiki masters channel. Pluto is the powerful energy that can also be used for dark purposes. If Pluto gets stuck in the Ego (and Mars rules the Ego) then it will just do damage - you know, power struggles, control issues, that sort of thing. BUT....since you have Pluto in a most harmonious aspect to your Mars and your Mars/Energy really needs some healing - this is what Pluto is going to do. Just let the super deep, powerful (Pluto is vibrationally dense and may seem a little dark...are you getting the feeling?) energy of Pluto totally Transform and regenerative your muscle tissue, body, and over-all energy. If you allow it - Pluto will unblock the blockages caused by your natal Saturn (Saturn is your life lesson!) - just let the energy course through you. And if you have to walk backwards in your dreams just do it! Don't be embarassed. KNOW that this is the most important thing for you.

I'll give you the exact dates that Pluto is sextiling your Mars:

January 2nd, 2003 (it has already started - what did you feel at this time? The first contact usually brings up the Issue - brings it out into the light. Did any Healing happen at this time?)
June 21, 2003 (2nd pass usually brings a Crisis of some sort. Any Healing Crisis happen?)
November 2, 2003 (3rd pass and last passes usually bring some sort of solution)
July to October 2004 (final Healing?)

Oh man....I just checked out where Pluto is in your chart and he has been moving into your Relationship house since late 2002 - so this may be affecting you too. How have your one-on-one relationships been? They will be going through Transformations and remember not to let the powerful Plutonic energy get stuck in your Ego. If you let that energy flow through you to benefit yourself Healthwise and others then it will be most beneficial to all.

Okay - that's all for now.

Tracey
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