I think that no matter how bad we fell or how much we suffer, and boy do we suffer!!!
Getting saved is the BEST thing to happen to us, or anybody for that matter. Only hing is, you have to wait untill the next life, to reap the rewards of being saved, so it seems becuse it sure seems vain in the here and now.
My pastor says God is no respector of persons and that God does know everything. I'm sure he knows how we suffer.
I also know a thig or two about the borderline personality, when I here the people at work talking about me, it's like I'm at a distance watching the whole thing. It's really weird. I often find myself doing a duble take when I see people with theor hand nere their noses to see if people are holding their. Whenever I here people talk in wispered tones I feel they are talking about me. I'm sure I have sufferd a small mental breakdown for sure because of this condition.
I feel tha same about the response from the devil issue as well, This codition has caused a wide gap in my relationship with God, the more a move away from God the more the devil has at me ir seems And it's not as easy for me to run to God because I'm so angry with him.