thanks, sarah, for your advice- i totally agree with you! i have sought professional help- over and over again- i have been inpatient in hospitals since the year 2000 - 5 times, to be exact- one time for 6 months because i had been so sick (79 lbs) and had to gain 50lbs while in the hospital. have you heard of johns hopkins hospital? it's in baltimore, maryland, and with the Lord's help, that hospital saved my life- their philosophy on eating disorders is one that creates success in the fight for our lives- while many of us do become statistics, hopkin's survival rate is higher than that of other hospitals, and i am so blessed to have been able to go there- again, sarah, i thank you for your candidness-i hope others see your post and take your advice-