Good to hear you're ok and working things through. That's only you need to do.
Yep, ignorance is certainly bliss when you first start this process. It’s overwhelming and weighs on you heavily. I can attest. But there comes a point when knowledge is POWER and PEACE, and when you get to the point of putting this behind you (which you will), you'll be more happy and feel more free and empowered.
Have a wonderful trip. Mexico sounds wonderful. I'm jealous!!!