Thanks for responding Mike, I am happy to say that we took the time that everyone requested and we ended up getting back together. OUr marriage is the best it has ever been since doing this and I find myself more in love with him than I truly was when we split. Even though I was so angry and hurt, I realized that I too wasn't exactly happy and I think I was just afraid of the new "change" in my life. Being use to something and having that day after day, when it's gone it's such a shock to who you are and the life you have created. I believe that's why people hurt so much at the beginning because until we sit down and open our eyes and feeling to how what we truly feel and come to terms with " I may of not been happy either" We hurt so much and long to get back what feels normal. It was that insight that made it easy to go back to the relationship as well as deal with it, because when the sadness went away I saw the true fact that I too wasn't entirly into the relationship as I so thought I was when I was in "victum" satus =) I appricitate the care of someone wrighting to me to comfort me when it was hard....I hope life is treating you as well as you treated it.