feelings!!

I was married for 4 1/2 yrs to a man i meet through work. We started dateing and a month after dateing i found out i was pregnant and before i new i was pregnant he moved to arizona but after i found out i was pregnant he moved back and we were together he proposed etc.. we ended up marrying in may and i had our first child in june of 2000. Eveyrthing was great till my son turned 3 months,then my ex husband was arrested for domestic violence. we seperated and got back together a month before a divorce was final, we dropped that divorce things have been up and down hill all the rest of the relationship we then had another child together in 2002. our divorce was final aug of this year. i left in jan and in march he was done living with anohter girl and still with her. he pays more attintion to her kids then his own but thats not an issuse. they have since moved to arizona from tn and all. i dont like the girl he is with i think he can do better. plus after we started getting along he admited he missed seeing me when he got to see the kids etc.. i still have feelings and would love to be a family agian but i dont think he feels the same and when i try and tell him how i feel he jokeinly says shut up. i wasnt happy in the enfd of the marrige he was cheating so i done the smae and let him bust me so he would leave.. big mistake .. i miss him and raising our kids together. how can i tell him how i feel when he wont liten and lives so fasr away.. help Tweet