Don't feel bad loquat. Even vektek and I have run across a similar problem when we use other people's writings when we debated calvinism and arminianism. Even though my beliefs are somewhere in the middle of the two, I would still catch myself using other people's writings that were more leaning to arminianism to make a stronger point and vektek as well would use some writings that leaned too far towards hyper-calvinism to make her point more clear. However, I don't think either one of us really lean that far the opposite direction naturally.
It seems to cause more confusion as people are trying to figure out what we really believe. So we understand this problem and realize it could take a long time to get it all ironed out for others to see.