i cant do the things i do before having this desease..
i miss going to work.. going to malls, watching concerts..
i have this leaky gut..
and im so depress and stress coz of this desease..
i dont know if im going to be cured..
sometimes i just want to give up..
and also time is passing by.. its been 5 months and i dont have a job coz of this desease..
sometimes i just want to die..
coz i cant take it anymore.. there this also a person around me that i thought he is a friend.. but he is only usingy desease to make fun of me,
for example: when im around he always saying "bullshit! its smell like shit here!" even theres nothing is smelly..
i lost my job, my family, my friends, even my gf.. then i have lots of problems..
i only eat veggies, sometimes i only eat once a day coz of so much depression.. im now so thin..
im so lonely, so much sadness, so much depress and stress..
i dont know what to do..
i dont know if im going to be cured
i dont know why i have this desease
i just want to give up, but i cant..
i try to kill my self 4 times already, but i just cant do it..