No he expects you to believe and accept that through him if you believe in Jesus he will heal you. he has the power to heal your body and above all give you peace of mind to get through it. Please do not let this ruin your future, it may take time to get use to but you can still run after your destiny. Don't blame god and don't give up on life because that's what people and the devil expects from you. Walk by faith and I will pray for you to have the strength to get through it and to be healed.