I pray that you heal. However you want to. I'm sorry you have had so much failure in your health. I know it is discouraging and can be expensive to eat well and find foods that are not poor quality.
However I pray more that you learn to forgive and lay it at the feet of Jesus and not pick it up over and over again. You are not healing. Your body is storing all that negativity and it is building and building. You can't heal with all that dark thinking. Please lay it at the feet of Jesus and let it go.
Everyone here loves you and don't want to see you suffer.