Nobody wants to have this. But we do, unfortunately, have it. I know how hard it is (I've started taking antidepressants), but we have to accept this and try to stay positive. As another sufferer said the other day: "We have to fight EC in our minds before we/our body can't fight the actual EC". I think this is very true. Our mind sometimes plays a big part in our health and healing.
Sorry for saying this, but I would suggest you to try being a little more positive in your posts, and also in your life, which of course is difficult, but that's the way it is right now. If you can't manage to be a little more positive, think about talking to a psychotherapist (which I'm doing as well now).