It sounds like you have some serious body image issues. I would recommend speaking to your doctor and telling him or her how you feel. It is also important to remember that you are not in this alone. You have family and friends who love you and just telling someone, your husband for example, could make you feel better. It sounds like you are headed for an eating disorder so I would say speak to your doctor ASAP as this will make treatment much easier. Your particular problem could stem from a one of the major life changes you talked about in your question. If you want to know more about how this causes ED, check out this blog at http://www.lifeworkscommunity.com/news/blog-wordpress/major-life-changes-can-...