Wow, I am blown away by these responses, literally.
It took me several days to come back an look at this because I was embarrassed about the breakdown. I thought people were going to chastise me and call me a weeny or God knows what for giving up on the fight.
Just shows that you guys are very sweet, caring people. Wish I hadn't be afraid to check back sooner. I have been on a lot of "fighting type" of forums lately.
Actually, that phrase "Thy Will Be Done" has echoed in my mind quite a lot lately.
Thank you for reminding me the importance of it. We get so tied up in our heads, we forget the infinite space of our hearts. And being quiet in meditation does bring that infinite space back.