I cant let go...

I try to forget... the pain stays...
its been years since i stopped being raped... but trying to move on is hard... i have noone to talk to. i need some help. i was in rehab for drug abuse and addiction but now that im sober i have nothing to help forget the abuse and pain... the images play over in my head like a movie and they get more vivid as the days go by... i used drugs to numb the pain and forget... ive been sober for almost 5 months and i want it to stay that way but with the pressures at home and school... its hard not to relapse... im an all A/B student and in the top 7% of my junior class... i HAVE to be perfect... failure is NOT an option... but i dont think i can do it anymore... Tweet