lost in translation

I feel so lost! my wife constantly verbally abuses me and on numerous occasions physically abused me. Tonight she was saying awful things to me and when i confronted her it turned physical. This shit happens on a regular basis. I really want out of this situation but I dont want to be without my two boys. I thought that when she stopped drinking this stuff would end but it seems to have gotten worse. I feel so alone and scared to leave because I don't want my kids to be abused by her I have no proof that she does this cause I never called the cops on her she has me too scared that she will never be with me again. I feel like I am controdicting myself, but I love her so much I just wish all thius would stop Tweet