It's true that thoughts are the roots of all things. But that doesn't mean that the situation you are in now isn't a real, tangible thing. Your thoughts can help lead you into a new situation, but it's obviously not an instant fix. Life is a constant work in progress. I've felt how you are feeling. [hug]
Just curious, what (if you want to share) happened to you on the organic farm? I also worked on an organic farm for a short while and it wasn't the best experience for me either. I wouldn't call it traumatic but it was definitely not what I was hoping for.