Re: Ranting about loved ones and MDs and expecting positive thinking can cure AF
Almost sounds archetypal, what you have done, what you understand, where you are, and what you are going thru.
You are suffering and you dont want too and youll do anything to alleviate that. It seems to me that you are on the right track. You are in some stage of breaking out and into more relevant understanding and freedom.
Perhaps the reason that the awareness feeling level of practice isnt actuating appropriately, thus helping you thru the crisis, is the lack of indepth and appropriate understanding as to the reality and actual unreality of pain and the illusion generation of societal responsibility, verbality, and thus suffering.
Dont you think theres an informative lesson here similar to how difficulty arises in your practice times, and u ignore or deal with it directly, unemotionaly, and eventually it goes away, to what is going on in your daily life now, that you are shareing about here?
Dont you think this is part of what you are going thru with, your personel relations, the Drs, your body imballance?
You may know of how virtually all advanced practictioners come down with mental or physical disease as they are transitioning thru the stages of expanding awareness. Each of our situations are so particular to us, so as to confound the conventional form we have become attracted and attached too, so that we can really learn the truth about misspercieved reality.