You've been right countless times before - what you said has given me hope that you'll be right one more time - that Alex will find his way, and so will I.
I felt like I wanted to kill myself several times over the past few weeks - I realized though, that Alex needs me, particularly now, when he is severely psychotic. If I'm out of his life, he won't have anyone left to advocate for him (pretty much - dad has issues).
I have no choice but to carry on - for now, at least.
If he's gone, I shall have NO reason whatsoever to live anymore, I don't want to, and I won't.
But while he's here, I must take care of myself, take my supplements, my Iodine, do all the things I know I must do (thank you Trapper and Newpie as well for your wisdom and guidance) to be able to carry on.