That is very kind Steve and so appreciated really. But I do not have any emotional baggage other than the repressed memories. I do live in a good place now away from many toxic people and I have a nice home and many things that fill it and I am in need of nothing.
The only emotional baggage I can think of is curezone as many days we just want to scream. I am extremely saddened to think that others think I am trying to glorify my situation by talking of a humble situation such as faith healing. We believe that no one can enter heaven with one ounce of pride and arrogance so we must be humble at all times.
I feel my problem is as usual was by sharing my honest feelings and experience with someone I trusted, and now realizing that I should of kept it to myself. By me trusting people with my deepest secrets made me vulnerable and left me with a feeling of stupidity. Sometimes Steve we forget that many are watching opposed to talking one on one with a friend.
My suicidal thoughts were solely attributed to the repressed memories.