Re: Whoa! edit

oh, I didn't mean to put that out there, the "why us" thing.

I think that it's common to wonder why some go seemingly early and others get a second(third, fourth) chance. We have all known angels that left us too soon and we all know those that laugh at mortality and live on to a ripe old age drinking, smoking, eating 4 strips of bacon and fried eggs for breakfast, cet. and I'm in no way suggesting that that applies to your sweetie!

Part of it is wondering how we can make our stay here longer.

My friend led a very dissolute lifestyle, drank waaaay too much and played with hard drugs in his younger years which led to hep C. So, he drank, knowing that he was flirting with death. In saying that I don't intend to suggest that he deserved to go early, just that he did not have respect for this mortal coil. or perhaps he could not let go of his youth...when we can all bounce back from hard living.

even so, he cleaned himself up. And he was doing really well for a while. But then he caught this, caught that, was back in the snares of the docs and caught in the cycle of hoping that someone would die at the perfect time. That "perfect time" being when he was sick enough for the powers that be would grant him a liver.

He was on the waiting list at a hospital in a college town. Apparently college students are more likely to have a healthy liver, and die an accidental death.

It was a crapshoot, and he lost. But when I think about him, and his life, I think he willed it. He had lost a few very near and dear in the years preceeding his death and I think that he wanted to join them.

He really did not want to live. He did not have a habit of "living".

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