You're very young, and I hate to see someone your age putting so much stress on yourself. I was recently Led (yes "L"ed) to post something this evening because after every single healthy thing I've done, the negative fearful talk still comes back to haunt me. I am still occasionally "falling down" and eating crappy food, and am still not "eating perfectly".
I am almost 52 now, and have done many fasts including one journaled here that lasted a full month. (Spring 2007) The youtube clip in the following post is something TRUE...it is showing the work of Dr Masuru EMOTO. I think his work is amazingly important and I also believe it is NOT "off/topic" with this forum because his work was done on WATER.