Re: tough love?

Not sure if you're still checking back on this thread, Trysten, but as I watched all this unfold, here were my thoughts.

The truth is, you've treated yourself more hatefully than V ever could in a million years, no matter how many pixels he puts up on the screen.

To someone who sees you say, on the one hand, "I've just spent the past few months defiling myself in unspeakable ways," and then you turn around and say "I'm in such a good place, I'm going to Thailand on this pure positive spiritual journey" -- something doesn't add up. So it's inevitable that someone call B.S. If it's harsh, well, it's brushed cotton compared with what you've put yourself through in 3D.

What happened to the part of you that fell apart and started using and did all those other self-destructive things you've posted about (and I'm also thinking of the other post you put up a few weeks ago)?

That part of you hasn't just disappeared. You haven't even healed your body yet.

Where is it?

Your response when people -- not just V -- gave their feedback on the Thailand trip didn't sound like someone who had it together. You said things like (paraphrasing) "this will be my ONLY chance EVER to go," and "I've wanted to go my whole life," "don't tell me drugs are bad, I won't accept that," "I can't possibly stay away from people who drink," -- that's not a mature, together person talking. Sounds more like a teenager throwin' a bit of a fuss.

If all you do is go all hurt & defensive, you'll miss an opportunity here, Trysten.

Put another way: ask yourself a question. IF this trip wasn't about some pure positive spiritual journey, what might it be about? What's reason B? Tweet