Thanks for being so supportive. :)
I'll be cool, I'm super strong, my only battle is with myself. But once the two battling "sides" of me come together on something, I stick to it.
I went through this with crack too. One part of me wanted to quit for a LONG time. The other part of me wanted nothing more but to get high. This battle went on and on but finally something happened (hitting a bottom) that was SO harsh that it shocked both of these sides into the reality of the situation, and I never touched crack again.
This recent relapse with alcohol was sort of the same thing. All parts of me are angry at alcohol and want nothing to do with it. It's like a really bad "friend" that only screws you over every time you hang out! Once you realize you don't need them, you wonder why you ever got to hanging out with them in the first place.