I'm new to this message board. I woke up this morning and the light went off in my head. I have a scheduled MD appointment today for all of the crazy depression/anxiety angry/pissed off all the time issues I'm having. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and have been medicated for quite some time. I was doing rather well but over the last several months... I feel as if i am losing my mind. I'm horribly angry all the time, suicidal at times, I've had at least one episode of hallucinations which were visual and scary. I am so paranoid with friends/family members and work. While I have had trouble in the past... this has been the worst i've ever felt and everyday is worse than the day before. My chest, back and face are broken out like I'm 15 again except this is more blimishes than I EVER had combined when I was going through puberty. I'm 33 and had this thing placed in December 2007. Had I known that Depression was a side effect, i would have never taken a chance with this as I was doing well managing the manic episodes of my bipolar disorder. This is the first real time I've dealt with Depression and I want this thing out!!!!! At times, I seriously could see myself snapping and with small children this is not something i want to be dealing with. My GYN knew about my bipolar disorder- why did he not warn me that this could throw me into such crazy mental states??? Is anyone else dealing with this???